My Life's Journey with Melanoma

This past week was the first scans since the clinical trial and treatment began.  These scans are important because they would tell Nicole and I if I was still cancer free.  Nicole and I left to go up to Huntsman.  To say the least, I was nervous.  I feel pretty good and feel like I am doing well but the scans would be key to letting us know that I indeed was still cancer free.  On the way to Huntsman I met a real nice Salt Lake PD motor officer, Officer Whitaker.  Apparently the speed limit on the off ramp to Foothill Drive reduces to 45 mph and then reduces again to 40 mph.  Apparently I was not paying real close attention, my mind must have been on something else, and I was not paying attention to how fast I was going.  I will be paying some money to be used by Salt Lake City. I still made it to Huntsman.  I could not eat or drink anything prior to scans except for the wonderful contrast that I have to take two hours prior to the scans...

Ok, so maybe I've been in a little denial.  This happened with my last bout but it took a little longer to happen.  Here is what I mean.  I was diagnosised, I had surgery, I had test and everything said the cancer was gone.  I then began treatment to "prevent" the cancer from returning or to catch it as soon as possible when it did return.  But, in my mind, it was hard for me to wrap my head around the fact that I was "sick" or "fighting my disease" because, in my mind, I was cancer "free".  That all changed after this last infusion. I went up for my fourth infusion and last of the first quarter.  I have been getting infusions every three weeks for the last three months.  After this infusion, I will get infusions once every three months.  Nicole and I went up early to get the labs done so that they would not hold us up for the treatment (we have learned that labs ALWAYS hold us up in starting infusion.)  For the first time, the nurse w...